I have spent

the entire day feeling like such a moron for not going into the ER last night. So much could have gone wrong and I KNOW that but stupidly talked myself out of going. The only reason Vin even went to work last night was because I guess I talked him into it (I don't remember any of that though). He has informed me that from now on we do what HE decides with medical situations. I told him I agree and that is the plan from here on out. I have reached the point of being too incompetant to even handle my own care.

I told the endocrinologist about my symptoms and she said it sounds like maybe I had another TIA and a severe reaction to the antibiotic that my regular doctor put me on. She said she didn't see a reason to order a CT scan. She is stumped though as to why I'm still having mini-strokes because we thought that lymph node we removed would stop that but obviously it hasn't. So now we're back to square one with that.

Personally I don't agree as far as the reaction goes but I'm so tired of going through doctors because it feels like they either don't know or don't care. Vin isn't happy with the diagnosis either but he's at a loss as well because it's all just so overwelming with all of my health problems. I feel so bad for him because he has to take care of his 33 year old wife. So not fair.

So what happened yesterday very well could be a in part a severe reaction to the Avelox that I was taking I suppose. To be honest, I'm still really out of it and don't remember much about yesterday. Today things are still foggy, I can't concentrate, and I feel like I'm going to black out but I'm suppose to quit taking the Avelox and if symptoms continue then contact my endo again and she will decide what to do. *sigh*

I really don't know what to do at this point. I have a number of the severe reaction effects from the Avelox AND I have all the signs of a stroke as well. My top lip is also swollen and has been all day. No clue why. I don't know what to do from here. My endo didn't even really seem like she wanted to hear about it you know? Even Vin was upset about that.

I'm sorry to scare all of you and I'm sorry I can't give a straight answer to you right now. It may be a severe reaction to a med or it may have been a stroke. I don't know but unless I can convince a doctor to have a CT Scan done all I can do is sit and wait for the next one. I am really out of it and just can't think clearly. I made Vin go to bed because he needs to work tonight and needs some sleep. He doesn't need to be sitting up worrying about me.

I think I'm going to clean out some email, tell the kids what to fix for dinner, get something to drink (I'm also dehydrated the doctor said), and just lay here feeling all funky. lol. Fuck I can't focus! I hate this so damn much.